I have received numerous emails from many, asking "where is the new blog"....One of my friends in particular is always asking (thanks for the positive pressure mb :) when I will be posting something new.

Every day, I have a reason. I believe that I have the best excuses in the book as to why I do not find the time to write and here are just a few of mine:

1. First I am intensely busy with end of the year "stuff" with my kids.

2. I have also "re-opened" my Kelly and the Angel on-line store. Even though there are few items listed, it seems, people want them, and I am very blessed to be shipping out products.

3. Dance, Soccer, school, all ending at the same time keeps me chauffeuring constantly.

4. I have been retained by several new clients to help de-clutter their homes and two new clients for simple web design.

5. We have two new kittens in the home, and even though we have been attempting to find them a home, I am resigning myself to the fact that THIS actually may be the home for them.

Yet, sitting and contemplating my whirlwind, much loved life, I painfully realize that these are excuses. As I have stated in the past, I LOVE writing, and when you truly love something you should do it. I "preach" this to people all of the time in my work. So why haven't I written lately?

My answer became clear to me. As I was attempting to get myself re-motivated to write, I started reading some of the old blogs and cringed when I read my quit smoking blogs....(Yup, the mother of motivation has fallen off of the wagon.) I did not realize how much I have been beating myself up over this until today. There it was in print, my failure. This coming from the same person that states at least 10 times a week "FAILURE IS AN EVENT, NOT A PERSON" to anyone that will listen. I temporarily lost hope in myself, and subconsciously it has been eating me up. I have been making more than enough excuses, to hide my guilt of starting smoking again.

I have made it a commitment, a mission, if you will to convince people, that of all of the things to let go of in their lives, is to never let hope be one of them. Here I was feeling hopeless and addicted to a habit that will kill me if I do not stop. In looking up the definition of hope this is what I read:

The definition of hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one’s life. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best. To hope is to wish for something with the expectation of the wish being fulfilled, a key condition in unrequited love. Hopefulness is somewhat different from optimism in that hope is an emotional state, whereas optimism is a conclusion reached through a deliberate thought pattern that leads to a positive attitude.

I have read many, many books of Dr. Wayne Dyer. His "new" one Excuses Begone! is fantastic and I encourage you all to read it!  Here is an except that impacted me today in my own struggle.

You can bring your desires to consciousness by disconnecting the power from your subconscious so that it can’t continue to run your life. Your subconscious (habitual) mind is accessible, so unearth the excuses buried deep within you. Become conscious!

Moving forward, my hope is renewed, my faith restored, and my blog is back.  Will I be a non-smoker? ABSOLUTELY  YES!   Failure is an event, not a person.

Peace, Love and HOPE to everyone!

Kelly